I haven’t written anything in a while, but since the year is coming to an end, i figured i would say a little something. 2011 sucked. it went by so fast first of all, and i feel like if anything, things got way worse for my family and me. but i’m still thankful to have made it through the year none the less.

i’m hoping that 2012 will bring new blessings, something to look forward to, and new opportunities not only for me, but my family, and friends. i let a lot of things hold me down this year, and i am definitely going into 2012 with a new outlook on things.

the main thing i pray for is happiness. especially for my parents. i look at my mom and dad sometimes and just want to cry. i can see the stress in the circles under their eyes, how much they have aged within the year, and how much everything has affected them physically, emotionally, and mentally. sometimes i wonder why didn’t they just get a divorce years ago, instead of living with someone they can’t even stand. i hope that i never feel that way with whomever i decide to marry one day. i know parents try to work things out for their kids, but personally, i think it would have been better for all of us if they just ended it all years ago. this year, things have reached levels they never have between the 3 of us, and relationships have become worse than ever. but it’s family and no matter how much i may not like a person, i can still love them. and i love my parents.

i just pray whatever happens 2012, their health improves, they snap out their funk (me too for that matter), and they both move on, from whatever it is they need to move on from in order to be happy. they deserve to be happy. especially my mother. she is the strongest person i know, and after seeing what she has had to deal with all these years, especially in 2011, i want nothing more than to make her proud, be successful, and give her back everything she deserves. she’s sacrificed and done so much for me. financially and emotionally. and for my father, man o’ man. i just hope this disease doesn’t consume him too soon, and that no matter how much we fight and bicker, i go to sleep every night praying he will wake up in the morning, and i wake up every day hoping that he will make it through the day.

here’s to 2012 - new beginnings, new opportunities, new attitude.